I believe that nothing will teach you more than getting on your mat everyday with sincere effort to stay focused and to accept where you are Now. Allow practice to become second nature, like brushing your teeth, and keep your eyes open. When you are focused and still, insight may shine through. You may not be able to put this insight into words in a blog. If you try, then the experience will disappear as quickly as it came. Pages in books do not convey the essence of what is possible with practice.
Sri K Pattabhi Jois, affectionately referred to as Guruji by his students, often said, "practice and all is coming". He emphasized "99% practice and 1% theory".
In traditional Ashtanga communities around the world, it is common for the teacher to get up in the wee hours of morning (3 am, for example) in order to take their own practice and be prepared for students to arrive before sunrise. This occurs at least 5 days/week, Sundays allowing for a later start time and Saturday being a rest day. The commitment and responsibility are huge for the teacher and it goes on week after week, month after month, until a break comes when he/she leaves to visit their own teacher (far away). While the pilgrimage to study may afford a slightly later wake up time, it also means a stronger asana practice under watchful eyes.
When I began to learn Ashtanga from a dedicated teacher, I noticed that he did this. He was there every morning unless he was in Mysore with Guruji. I am grateful to have shared that time with him. I am grateful to have witnessed his commitment and dedication. If my alarm went off and I didn't want to get up, I thought of him. I still do. I think of all the teachers around the world and their efforts. I learned more by absorbing this discipline than any book could have portrayed in words.
I was convinced to make time everyday for practice. Initially, I may not have understood how or why, but still I managed to create a habit of practicing every morning. Sometimes the night before I'd stay up too late, I'd eat too much or drink too much, sometimes with a crick in my neck or an ache in my heart. Still, I got up. I moved through postures and breath. I came to see that no matter how I felt before, always I felt better after - peaceful. I created experience within myself that became part of my Being. Now, even when my mind is questioning, my body does not. I get up and I do it.
Ten years later and with very little effort, my habits have changed. I get enough sleep, my diet has changed, and I practice with respect to where I find my body each day. For the most part I have learned when to push myself and when to back off. I am less enchanted by postures and more focused on breath and stillness. I see opportunities to face fears which come up in challenging postures but I also know that large internal shifts can occur in subtle movements. I may not know why or how such shifts occur, but when I am still enough I can observe that it is so.
If yoga philosophy teaches us that turning inward we will be free, then why are we spending so much time reading others' thoughts and theories and blogs and suggestions...? Instead of feeding the mind, who is weak and gives up, perhaps we can be still in meditation 10 minutes longer. Practice and see how you feel after. It speaks for itself.
